One of the first things I ever wrote

“I am a mirror to you, cold and distant
for the way you treat me,
I look away
from you
and our home.”

Has nothing to do with now.
Only a memory.
a phrase that has lived
nearly as long as I have.
I keep it close to me.
Though it serves no purpose
other than to upset me
with it’s power.
I release it now.
I release all
that does not serve me
and bring me joy.

To light the way

spring new

unencumber yourself

from the way you remember

a new day

a new dawn

life moves on

with or without you

hold dear

the ones you love

hold the memories

lovingly

hold the friendship

in your heart

depart

from the dark

reminisces

they don’t bring

happiness

embrace the love you felt

and let it all pass on

as they have.

I long

for days with friends

loved ones

no longer here

Their voices, words, and laughter

linger in my mind.

Conversations with kindred spirits

dear and remembered.

Words thats will never be said again.

Such is the loss.

Many friends remain

but the loss

is still deeply felt

just the same.

heavy sigh

what I aspire to

the words

of insight and inspiration

lovingly kept

in a velvet lined box

far from prying eyes

they will not be opened

they will not be released

to this ground

to this space

without

a re emergence

of spirit

which I have no control over.

May they come and be glorious.

For now,

I have no words.